A mother who made headlines after she posed with 20,000 BEES in a unique maternity shoot revealed that she suffered a stillbirth in a heartbreaking post.
Beekeeper Emily Mueller, 33, who has suffered three previous miscarriages, revealed that the baby boy was stillborn, writing that she “gave birth to an angel”.
The mum-of-three mourned the loss of the child, who they had named Emersyn Jacob, in a heartwrenching Facebook post on Monday.
It comes four months after she created a buzz when she invited honeybees to settle on her baby bump in pregnancy photos which went viral around the world.
Emily, of Ohio, US, wrote: “Yesterday evening we had to hand over our precious child and say goodbye to his physical body forever.
“Our baby has died. Our baby will never come home with us.
“This wonderful rainbow baby we were blessed with has now become a storm in our lives.”
Emily said she knew something was wrong last Thursday evening, a week before her due date, when she realized the unborn tot had not been moving much.
At around 2.30am she woke up unsettled and her and her husband Ryan, 37, tried to find a heartbeat together but couldn’t, so went to the hospital the next morning.
Emily wrote: “I truly thought we would be sent home with a smile, telling us to just wait for the arrival of our sweet Emersyn, who was due in six days.
“I remember thinking it felt strange to dress myself in a gown in front of the nurses but giving birth sort of breaks you in on these things; I then laid in the bed with our youngest son, Westyn.
“My husband stood next to me with our daughter and our oldest son had already been at school. The nurses put a monitor on me and tried to find a heartbeat.
“They moved it, added more gel, moved it again…found my heartbeat and put a monitor on my finger to compare the beats. They tried and tried.
“I finally asked them, ‘You can’t find the heartbeat?’
“The nurses tried comforting me, telling me to just wait as it seemed more and more of them came into the room.
“Tears streamed down my face and breathing started to become difficult.
“They asked for them to retrieve the Dr on call.
“I remember his presence, his walk, the way he grabbed the gel from the nurse’s hand, the ultrasound.
“Every detail of that moment is forever sketched into my mind and I cannot stop replaying it.
“Dr. Sutter sat on my right side looking at the screen and turned to me and said, ‘Your baby has passed.’
“I can’t and don’t want to explain that feeling to anyone. Turning to your husband and seeing him die inside. Seeing him completely break.
“Seeing your children feel and suffer your pain in front of your eyes. The pain is unbearable.”
Emily went on to be induced and gave birth to her deceased baby with the support of their “amazing midwife and phenomenal nurses” who cried with them.
“You could not deny he was loved by so many people and we continue to see this through the outpour of love and support you all are providing,” she added.
The mom added: “Our lives have been changed forever in so many ways but I am realizing we are not the only ones suffering the loss of Emersyn.
“It is a profound experience to see how many people are mourning with us. Your prayers are what are getting us through and it means so unbelievably much to us.”
Former communications worker Emily runs Mueller Honey Bee Removal with husband Ryan, 37, with whom she has three children – Cadyn, 10, Madelynn, three and Westyn, one.
She keeps 24 hives containing around 1.2 millions bees and she hit headlines in August after posing for a set of photos covered in thousands of bees.
At the time she said: “A lot of people think I’m insane but I’m so comfortable with bees so it was never something I had anxiety about.
“I wore a dress that was long and covered my stomach and legs so the bees would be on the outside of my body as a precautionary measure, but I knew it was safe.”
She added: “I felt calm throughout, though I did get stung three times.
“I accidentally squished one with my butt and another under my arm pit, and the third time I was pretending to eat a bee jokingly and I squashed one against my lip.
“The photos were worth it. I love them.”
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